Life makes you hard.

You experience
Things that create a small,
Unseen divider.

You can't see it.
But you feel it.

In the way you pull away a little bit at a time,
In the way you give up a little bit at a time,
In the way you do a little less,
a tiny bit at a time.

And you make excuses 
It's the kids...
It's work...
It's money...
It's my existing or non-existing relationship... 
It's my age...

When really all it is,
Is closing your heart,
Building up an invisible wall,
A wall the will keep you from
Feeling…
Remembering…
Expirincing…

A wall to keep you safe.

And that wall creates an invisible layer of separation 
Between who you were, who you are,
And who you want to be.

And everything becomes not about living 
But about staying safe.
Avoiding pain.

And slowly, 
underneath the surface, 
We close our heart.

We keep a score board in the back of our mind.
We allow resentment and disappointment to take over,
We close our heart a bit and a time,
And before we know it the thing we wanted most at one point 
Is the thing we fear of having in the name of being safe.